"Lean not on your own understanding..."

A few nights ago a friend of mine posted a Bible verse on Facebook from the book of Proverbs; most of the time I will scan on and not take the time to read what apparently inspired my friend.  This night was different, however, and I was interested in the message behind the post.  So I found the Bible and I read it.  Proverbs 3:5, "Trust the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding."  I found it to be moving, highly inspirational, and I was glad I had taken time out of my life to read it.  It wasn't until today that the actual meaning behind the scripture touched my heart personally.  Yes, I loved it as soon as I read it, and I remembered it from the countless number of sermons since I was just a baby...but today it took on a whole different meaning for me. 

I often find myself going into situations with negative thoughts- "oh, I can't possibly do this!" "This is way too hard," and "I just don't know what to do" have consumed a great deal of my thoughts lately; one example specifically, Spanish class.  I am not necessarily terrible at the subject I just have a closed mind about it.  My raisings tend to follow me, and in some situations I am not proud of it.  I cannot count how many times I have heard someone in my family say "If we went to Mexico would everyone there have to learn English to communicate with us? Probably not.  So why do we have to learn Spanish?  If they want to live here, then they should learn our language!"  I am not going to lie and say I disagree, because really all in all it isn't exactly fair.  But life is what it is and knowing more than one language makes you a more rounded individual.  But because I have always looked at this situation with a negative point of view it has made the subject difficult for me from the start.  I have no desire to know the language; therefore, I have convinced myself that I do not have the ability to learn it either.  Yesterday, my roommate sat down with me and answered all the questions I had, quizzed me, and explained the stuff I found to be ridiculous - and to my surprise she looked at me and said "Kayla, you're actually doing pretty good with this!"  With that one statement I began to take on a whole different aspect on the subject.  I could do it, I was proving it right then and there.  It is actually kind of easy, when you WANT to learn it.  I have removed the brick wall that stood between me and espanol.  I have a big test tomorrow and tonight I will spend my time preparing because now I care.

I hope to take this lesson with me in ALL situations in life.  My own understanding is nothing- but the understanding of God is everything!  If I allow myself the chance, and give him the glory things turn out so much better in the end! <3