...law needs another voice.

Last semester was an eye-opener for me; many things changed in my life.  Change is something I usually approach as being a bad thing and avoid at all cost; however, some things you cannot run from, some things you must accept and deal with.  Since the age of eleven my heart has been completely set on one day becoming a Pediatric Rheumatologist...to help fight this disease that has fought me for a little over eight years.  I had the motivation, ambition, desire, and ability...all that was left was to take the classes to get there.  I never considered any other option because for me that was the only thing that could possibly make me happy...or so I thought.  I realize that all things happen for a reason and knowing that has helped me cope in this situation.  I am an over-achiever, always have been.  So, when I do not make the top-notch grades or meet a specific deadline or goal that I have for myself I get frustrated and feel as if I have failed.  I failed at being a Biology graduate.  But not really.  I still have the grades to make it.  My GPA hasn't suffered much at all and I still have plenty of time to change anything that isn't perfect; however, my ambition for that specific field has vanished.  I no longer enjoy going to Biology classes, I don't care to keep up with "the latest health update," and I get nauseated at the sight of a hospital or doctor's office.  I am beginning to wonder if that was ever even MY dream at all...or was I living the dream for someone else?  I have always enjoyed writing, english classes always did make the top of my list of favorite classes.  I recall logic puzzles from fifth grade that I always found to be so much fun, and while helping Bryan study for the LSAT I remembered how much I loved them...and we made it a game, competing with one another.  Of course he won, my mind doesn't work quite that fast; however, I was doing something that kept my attention and gave me the drive to continue.  Bryan had talked to me about law school before but I merely laughed at the prospect.  I often do not give myself enough credit...and in this case I felt as if I were "too dumb" for law school.  Common sense is something I usually say I don't have much of, but when it comes down to all seriousness I have plenty to succeed.  Last semester a 34 year marriage ended and I was one of the three "children" who had to endure this devastation.  The court proceedings have not gone as smoothly as planned and amongst all of this drama I have found my heart in Family Court.  I want to help others like my momma who deserve a way out and are not sure how to go about it.  I want all child support debts to be paid.  I want children in the middle of such a family crisis to not have to suffer in the same way I have.  I would also like to persue disability claims.  I am denied my disability despite being a lupus patient because of things that have been done out of spite of me.  I know there are many other individuals who are denied their benefits as well and I want to put a stop to it.  Medical malpractice has come to my mind as well.  While I no longer have a desire for Biology, I refuse to waste all the time I have spent in it thus far; with that being said, I am seeking a minor in Biology with a major in Criminal Justice.

I often feel as if I have failed because I did not continue on the path I had laid out for my life.  But I am starting to realize, that was the problem all along...it was MY plans and only MINE...I didn't let God have a say-so in the matter.  I am convinced that's why things have changed, and I am gradually accepting the change and being happy with it.

The past two days have been the first two of my sophomore spring semester and I have been more excited about my classes than any others before now.  I hope all works out for the best and I hope I find myself being proud of the change I have made.  I know once this news reaches the ears of certain individuals unkind words will be said....they'll probably assume I couldn't make it and guess that I won't continue with this track either.  But, it is because of you that I have decided that the law needs another voice.