College is such a crazy place, just a piece in the puzzle of life's reality. So many adventures, memories, friendships, and relationships, late nights, supper dates, and unfortunately heartbreak.
I recall a time back in Kindergarten when my teacher sent a note home saying, as I remember something like..."Kayla needs to learn to stay in her seat, do her own work, and not worry about everyone else's problems." I only thought I was being helpful. I hated to see someone suffer, hated to see someone in need, and absolutely wanted to fix everything in my little Kindergarten world. <3
I think about that from time to time, but lately it seems that I recall that note more than ever. I am in a place full of different people, from different places, different backgrounds, different cultures, different values, morals, beliefs, and different relationship ideas. I have opened myself up more than ever; expanding the narrow mind that was developed for me in my raising. I have watched relationships form, relationships carry on, and relationships fail; I have watched some of what I thought was the "perfect couples" shatter to pieces over what I felt were childish situations. However, college is a time to find yourself I guess. It hurts to be so close to individuals who cannot find a way to remain one; although it is not my problem...I tote the burden on my shoulders as if it were. I feel the need to mend everything...I want everyone to be happy and I want everyone to be with the person they love. I have to continuely remind myself that, "Hey, Kayla, this isn't your world...leave it in the hands of the Lord!" How true, but how difficult.
"My dear brothers and sisters, be quick to listen, slow to speak
and slow to get angry." James 1:19
Not only in relationships, but in people's social life at college as well. I see individuals who do not go out and try to make friends, do not gather at the campus activities, dorm programs, or campus club events; blame it on bad scheduling, studying, or the best of all is "I'm sick." I do not understand how these individuals expect to form a circle of friends when they do not go out to find them...people are not just going to come to you especially if you aren't a very open person. I find myself surrounded by so many people who I enjoy being around, such a wide variety, people of different backgrounds, different goals, and different ideas of fun. I have to shuffle my schedule around to fit people in most of the time, and it is wonderful. And then I see those who can barely scrape up a friend or two here and there...and spend the rest of the time complaining that "they don't fit in." I feel sorry for these college students who seem to be drowning in the books and in the crowds; but I've always been told you cannot help someone who doesn't want to help themselves.
"Therefore all things whatsoever ye would that men should do to you, do ye even so to them: for this is the law and the prophets." -Matthew 7:12
For some individuals wishing to find their place, this may be helpful.
I have so much more weighing on my heart, but for tonight this is it... <3 For those of you who believe in the power of prayer, please pray for my friends & for others who are battling rough points in their relationships.
